Happy first day of Spring! The weather is starting to warm up at long last and life is beginning to appear outside in the form of buds and daffodils. It’s almost the end of March already, which means we’re coming up 4 months into 2017. I don’t really do New Years Resolutions but I do like to give myself goals and aspirations for the upcoming year ahead. Last year was spent doing nothing but healing. In hindsight, it can feel a little like wasted days but after everything I had endured, it was necessary healing time that I needed in order to get myself to the point that I’m at now. But I promised myself that this year I would become stronger and that I would start living my life for me. I’ve spent the past 10 years of my life in other people’s shadows and my lack of self confidence made me feel like I wasn’t smart enough to achieve what I really want in life. Forget New Years Eve. Springtime is the perfect time to realise your dreams and ambitions, and create their foundations.
This evening, I picked some wild daffodils from my garden and I put them in a vase. They are such a gorgeous, vivid yellow. Ironically, this is also the colour of the solar plexus chakra. The solar plexus chakra is responsible for the following:
- Will power
- Taking responsibility for one’s life
- Mental abilities and intellect
- Forming personal opinions and beliefs
- Making decisions
- Personal identity, self assurance and confidence
I haven’t always been in control of my life (who has?!) and I certainly have lacked in confidence in myself over the years. Where I am now is probably the most self assured I have ever felt in my life and I feel that finding meditation and spiritual development has aided me in that greatly. I am slowly beginning to take control of my life. I recognise that I am not an especially academic person but I now finally feel in a position where I can hopefully change that. I left school to work full time at the age of 17. I have stayed within the same organisation for almost 12 years, floating from job to job without much of a plan. My goal in life used to be get married and have my own family, but things didn’t work out that way. Here I am, divorced and approaching 30 years of age. This is not where I expected to be at all. I thought I’d have at least one child by this point. I have cats instead of children, which is hindsight is probably a blessing in disguise after everything that has happened over the past 18 months. I’ve spent far too much time wallowing and I’ve also spent too much time doing jobs that I don’t really care for. The organisation that I work for has treated me well and I enjoy working for them, but I will never be able to really apply myself if I stay there. So using springtime inspiration to fufil hopeful oppotunities, I have been seriously considering taking up an Open University degree. It’s not going to be easy and it will take me 6 years to complete it alongside full time work, but I feel that I’m ready for it. I care a lot for people and I find interest in discovering what makes them tick. I have so many friends that come to me with their problems, so I figured it was about time that I got paid for it! Counselling degree, here I come.
Another solar plexus beauty is my “Wish Jar”. Every week, I write down the positive things that happenend before dropping the card inside of the jar. I thought it would be something that I would forget to do and struggle to keep on top of, but it’s been so easy. Every Sunday/Monday evening, I write those happy notes on some card and then I let go. I’ve enjoyed watching the little notes grow in number every week with my left handed, slightly smudgy cursive letters. I look forward to reading back over each and every single one of them at the end of the year before I scrapbook them and imortalise them on my increasingly full bookcase.
So, Happy First Day of Spring! Take charge of your life and treat yourself like a little budding flower. You need water, sunlight and nuturing first before you can fully embrace you in all of your wonderful you-ness 🙂
And before I go, I just had to share this! I found it last night and it had me in hysterics. Perhaps my heart chakra could do with some work…right, off to do the dishes and some meditation before bed!
With love, Darling Soul x
oh, darling soul. 